The road ahead is at the moment a little uncertain. I am unsure of the best route to take. We have been plodding along and trying to making the best of where we are at. It is not completely successful. Alfie is enjoying the opportunities that flexi schooling has allowed us but it is becoming increasingly clear that his time in the classroom and especially the playground are not always happy experiences. Over the last month he has had a run of viruses and a lot of time off school. We have stepped up our home education and unschool learning and I have noticed a calming in his body and actions. Over the weekend as we got closer to Monday morning the erratic and frantic flipping and spinning increased. We hardly slept on Sunday night as he woke again and again fretting about school in the morning. It breaks my heart and I feel as though I am crushing his soul asking him to push himself through his anxiousness and fear. He has told me he feels unsafe and yet I tell him it is OK and take him back there each day.
